Friday, March 29, 2013

it would be so liberating if i were given the chance to play that role

if we could all be kinder the world would be a better place. 

Wednesday, March 27, 2013

jumbled thoughts. messed up memories.

curious case of benjamin button
in my case, mentality reversal.

i used to follow rules so well that all the adults think that im such a good girl such a mature girl coz she dont do silly stuff of play like other kid does. she take care of the younger cousins. shes the responsible one. shes the bright one who will make the family proud.

20 years passed and reality hit that girl like mars hitting earth.

welcome to the world!!

Wednesday, March 20, 2013

we are all searching for this something. 
a connection
a passion
a life

extrinsic motivation no longer effective for most people. they are searching for something more. something deeper. an intrinsic motivation and satisfaction. 

so do i...

Sunday, March 17, 2013

If being alone all the time is socially acceptable it's perfectly fine with me to be left alone. It's really quite simple what I want.
Where r u?
Will u bring me to neverland?

Saturday, March 16, 2013

starting something can be dreadful..
its like removing the biggest boulder


random words

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

I can't believe a book like this would set me to tears. Though I'm not particularly similar but there's parts that made me reflect and I was so shameful of what I did yet it's not a culture for typical Chinese to be emotionally expressive. Imagine a egoistic self contained male, most Chinese are like that. Affections and emotions are not typical scenes almost like allergy and most of the times we forgot or actually we don't know how to show our love and gratitude to love ones. A sudden urge to call and say I love you and I'm glad to have u guys in my life but the typical me just dismiss the idea that it would be absurd and to avoid the awkwardness and bombardment of "are you alright ?" Questions
(I might regret for not doing it one day.)

 I may not be specifically affected by that problem I do have my own insecurity and some thoughts were so familiar like I could feel what she was going through. The difference is I'm still stuck there. I guess ppl like me tend to be cynical at things. Like it seems like she has recovered and got her happily ever after but there must be other problems or stuffs they r hiding. She's happy now then what about the other person they left so abruptly so irresponsibly. They look like such good ppl but must be certain stages in their life that they r just as ugly as selfish anyone can be. Ppl just can't be nice and kind all the time.
(Books too can be deceiving sometimes just like how ppl want others to perceive them, books instills certain image and idea the author wants readers to believe)

Sunday, March 10, 2013

does changing yourself according to situation make you ingenuine?
ppl often say just be yourself and everything will turn out great.
its so superficial. who doesnt want to be comfortable and be your own self all the time. unfortunately its not always the case. 

Saturday, March 9, 2013

what do you do when you hit your low? does patience pay off? are you willing to wait for things to turn right?   what if they dont? is there anything that i can do?

where are you?
accomplishment, satisfaction, content

sound and voices

long nights of waiting
shadows that never appear
silence creeping into my bones

we walk we run we fall we get back up and we run again
until we can run no more 
then we stroll