i really dont have the strength ppl say those who committed suicide are failures i say they are the real brave ones. all those in movies are not real there is no happily ever after. nothing is forever other than death. im starting to understand how suicidos think for im turning into one of them could go any more lower than this?
curious case of benjamin button
in my case, mentality reversal.
i used to follow rules so well that all the adults think that im such a good girl such a mature girl coz she dont do silly stuff of play like other kid does. she take care of the younger cousins. shes the responsible one. shes the bright one who will make the family proud.
20 years passed and reality hit that girl like mars hitting earth.
I can't believe a book like this would set me to tears. Though I'm not particularly similar but there's parts that made me reflect and I was so shameful of what I did yet it's not a culture for typical Chinese to be emotionally expressive. Imagine a egoistic self contained male, most Chinese are like that. Affections and emotions are not typical scenes almost like allergy and most of the times we forgot or actually we don't know how to show our love and gratitude to love ones. A sudden urge to call and say I love you and I'm glad to have u guys in my life but the typical me just dismiss the idea that it would be absurd and to avoid the awkwardness and bombardment of "are you alright ?" Questions
(I might regret for not doing it one day.)
I may not be specifically affected by that problem I do have my own insecurity and some thoughts were so familiar like I could feel what she was going through. The difference is I'm still stuck there. I guess ppl like me tend to be cynical at things. Like it seems like she has recovered and got her happily ever after but there must be other problems or stuffs they r hiding. She's happy now then what about the other person they left so abruptly so irresponsibly. They look like such good ppl but must be certain stages in their life that they r just as ugly as selfish anyone can be. Ppl just can't be nice and kind all the time.
(Books too can be deceiving sometimes just like how ppl want others to perceive them, books instills certain image and idea the author wants readers to believe)