what do i wan? this is the big ques that i kept asking myself.. where am i heading to.. what am i doing now? everything seems so redundant.. what is my role in this society? where do i belong?where do i see myself in 5 years? i guess the age really is doing a great job messing with my head. 21 seems like such a big deal. ive lived almost 21 years now and dont feel ive accomplished anything in my life other than growing some weight and height.. most ppl wanna be successful in life. what is my definition of success?

in the end im just a 21 year old lost in my own life..

can i disappear for a year or so?....

i have two empty bowls but there;s only so much water i have. filling one more means leaving another insufficient.. just like in life there;s only so much allowance and i have to chose where should i put them.

i look into ppl and see if any part of their life that i wan and also avoid mistakes that they made.

i guess im just too greedy making my investment in any form too diversified, not reaching anywhere that i intended to.

so what is the smart investment plan? i wonder how long will it take for me to figure it out.. or will i ever figure it out..