~gone with the wind~

2011-12-30T19:10:00.002+08:00

sometimes we just need to be more shameless and live with things that we have done... self hypnotize and ignorance might be the best way to get through certain things.

2011-09-25T22:00:00.003+08:00

its so hard when i couldnt whats ahead..

2011-09-18T13:15:00.008+08:00

how does ppl here do this??? constantly refrain urself the high discipline and concentration. how i wish i could start working.. there;s so much more personal time to do things that you love. things that u really wanna learn instead of cramping your brain with all the shits from the notes.

im trying really hard to fight this emo feelings. sometimes i wonder all the happy faces i see everyday, are they real? or are they faking it. we r not kids and displaying your true emotions doesnt work well in this society.

as much as i don t wanna care about how other ppl think of me, reality doesnt function that way.

ignoring the perception of other ppl is as good as living in your own world

Balance in life. how do you achieve it? and how do you maintain it? Comtemplating between life and work.

Motivation? there's none in me. doing this purely because im suppose to is so hard. everyone is searching for some..

i never thought that this day would come to me where i would pay ppl to do my assignments.. ya.. im that desperate... im paying some stranger 100 bucks to do a stupid english essay which comprise 40% of my module that cant even secure a pass..

i used so many days to do just one stupid presentation. i spent another dunno how many freaking days to write another essay for another elective. now i get how do the business students feel like.

i really feel like going for a drink.. but then i thought of it.. so what if i go for a drink... it doesnt help me feel better.. mayb for that few hours of escape and then im bac..

last time i would feel pity for those ppl who do ntg other than what they like and they are not good in everything else not even in talking to ppl.. but now i feel lucky for them because at least they have direction and they hav the passion for something.. 21 and im lost..

i feel like im only living mayb about 3-4 months out of 12 months in a year. i spent the rest of the months feeling emo, doing whatever everyone is suppose to do, ignoring and hoping that mayb smtg would happen or change. not living the moment when thats what life is suppose to be.

this is the most lengthy entry after so long.. probably from all the essay writing that i have been doing...

life is a fucking bitch!!

2011-09-08T00:27:00.002+08:00

i crossed the line... and i lost everything.

awesome days ahead!!!

2011-07-26T09:41:00.002+08:00

27th- convo day
i wonder how is it going to be. its not my convo thought. just hope everything goes smoothly.

28th-work whole day

29th-work again and meet bro and cousins at night

30th till 31st-quality time with family

1st - mayb outing with a fren

2nd till 4th -beach time (hooray!!!!!!!!!!!!!! cant wait!!! )

4th till 8th-quality time with C

what a fun week to come!! hahaha. enjoy till the very last minute before school starts.

2011-07-18T12:42:00.003+08:00

sometimes things are just not meant to be...

i should have expected that this will happen.. y cant there be more time..

y do i always repeat my mistakes even though i know the outcome.

2011-06-23T23:50:00.002+08:00

10 dollar poorer when my 10 dollar note flew right into the gap of the elevator.

i could have score bullseye blind folded. --_--''

2011-05-17T10:35:00.001+08:00

everyday i look around me there;s not one person;s life that i wan..

2011-05-04T00:21:00.003+08:00

i will try to be better in every possible way for everyone that i love.

what was done is history and i will try to make whats coming to be better.

i love u all..

2011-04-03T20:30:00.006+08:00

doing it all over again...

scheming through the shelves i hope i can find a book that match my interest.. but there is no one book that fits everyone perfectly. nothing comes in package.. you have to customize your own book.

everything is just too subjective...

where is the key?.. the same door do not open twice.. yet i had it opened twice for me but i did not step through.. where does it lead to?

grass always seems greener on the other side.. its true until we've been on the other side.. now that ive been there i wish i could go back.

im too tired to take the next move...

the moment is getting near.. afraid it might strike me again...

whenever im near that point of stage i just thought maybe a few hours of escape would help but its reality that we are living in..

i might seems like a planner of life.. the truth is i don't make the best decisions and more often than not i regret my moves.

why do ppl do what they do? why do they do it even though they know there will only be the worst. why i do things i did? i have absolutely no idea. i'm not exactly the person who think only with my head. i do go with my heart sometimes but it turn out that my heart is the culprit to my unsatisfactions. maybe i should only trust my brain..

im thinking that i should mix with these new frens of mine lesser... they are kinda like the shadow of him.. it scares me how similar i can be...

i don't really like who i am but thats just who i am...

some self reflection.. upbringing really shapes who you will be... and i will definitely train my kids to have high self discipline.. if i ever have kids... i just don't think i will be a good mom. hahah. so better not to have any.

2011-02-28T11:28:00.003+08:00

what do i wan? this is the big ques that i kept asking myself.. where am i heading to.. what am i doing now? everything seems so redundant.. what is my role in this society? where do i belong?where do i see myself in 5 years? i guess the age really is doing a great job messing with my head. 21 seems like such a big deal. ive lived almost 21 years now and dont feel ive accomplished anything in my life other than growing some weight and height.. most ppl wanna be successful in life. what is my definition of success?

in the end im just a 21 year old lost in my own life..

2011-02-28T10:54:00.001+08:00

can i disappear for a year or so?....

2011-02-20T23:36:00.003+08:00

i have two empty bowls but there;s only so much water i have. filling one more means leaving another insufficient.. just like in life there;s only so much allowance and i have to chose where should i put them.

i look into ppl and see if any part of their life that i wan and also avoid mistakes that they made.

i guess im just too greedy making my investment in any form too diversified, not reaching anywhere that i intended to.

so what is the smart investment plan? i wonder how long will it take for me to figure it out.. or will i ever figure it out..

2011-01-28T10:22:00.002+08:00

this morning i just got a msg from a fren that John a very nice person and a loving husband had just passed away.. the last time i saw him he looked so healthy and normal.. just hope that her wife Joanne (she shares the same name as me) will be ok..

2010-12-17T19:02:00.002+08:00

drowning on the other side of the pool...

~do u ever feel like a plastic bag drifting through the wind wanting to start again?...

-kate perry

i wonder y last time i dont like her. i do now..

2010-12-04T21:06:00.002+08:00

the excitement of going to aust is creeping in and ive been searching for blogs or sites to read about where i can go or what i can do in melbourne. im suppose to study for my finals. ok spending half an hour during lunch break while eating and reading shouldnt do much harm right? ok mayb taking half an hour for facebooking during tea time wouldnt do much harm also am i right? then another half an hour updating my blog and watch some video after dinner and shower wont do much harm too. then the many half an hour became hours. o.O

gtg now or another hour will be gone.

2010-11-30T20:50:00.001+08:00

life is beautiful~vega 4

2010-11-23T19:44:00.003+08:00

i really wanna be there... but im so far away......i dun want all the things that ive been chasing for anymore... i just wan to stay close..

all i can hope for is everything to be ok.

why is it have to be so unfair...

2010-11-22T22:00:00.000+08:00

happy familly. =)

2010-11-18T18:18:00.002+08:00

.... just carry on with any visible path while looking for the right turning...

but not everyone is that lucky and some might never find it even at the end of the route.

2010-11-14T21:34:00.003+08:00

i was trying to jailbreak my iphone and kaboom all my apps are gone.. god knows what i did..somehow somewhat i just have problem with manuals be it in life or things in general because i will never follow the instructions. even sometimes in lab i would do the wrong steps because my brain is just simply programmed to find shortcuts every now and then.

its amazing and scary at the same time how a person can affect you so much. you will start to see and change...

2010-11-04T22:27:00.001+08:00

damn!!! my favourite bra is missin.!!! confirmed there's lingerie thief at my block..

2010-10-29T00:13:00.003+08:00

memory getting worst.... i know i hav bad memory but its getting even worst.

this sat clarke would be such a happening place.. coz its halloween and holloween for me coz i need to study my finance for quiz on monday..

i heard from the radio that there will be so many ppl dressing up for the night. a girl said she will dress as shehulk. haha. i hope next year i can go and take a look and enjoy the atmosphere abit.

why do all the events come at the wrong time? og mate bday, spanish club meeting, fren's concert, HALLOWEEN NIGHT...

nvm,. i shall not be enticed!!! concentrate!!!

2010-10-27T21:39:00.002+08:00

lingerie thief or i missed them when i was taking out the laundry?

i realized i have 2 bras missing and mayb a few panties are missing too. hhmm.....

one major good thing today; i can do my quiz!! its a miracle!!!!!!! i was so nervous and none of the ppl i know is in the same tutorial with me. my mind was frozen and i know i need to talk to someone.. thank god i got my iphone that connects me to the world..

work was fine ntg much but had a good chat with david. mayb i should join their company after i grad. or some company in that industry.

im already looking for escape route b4 i grad coz i know i wont be an engineer.

or perhaps i should just learn how to cook and be a future good housewife. ahhaha

maths maths maths...... must get into the mood!!!!!

2010-10-19T02:00:00.003+08:00

i had a surprise birthday celebration today from my coursemates the least thing i would expect. coz i just changed clique this sem. so this morning the whole study together thing was a plan. no wonder the other night the message sent to me was ' tomorrow lets study together. must say yes ok' but i wouldnt suspect anything that night. so this morning there i was studying with them in the lib. actually only esther and juntat were there and the rest were having discussion at the canteen. then when it came to lunch time, we went to canteen to meet them. coincidentally today is also another guy;s bday. so they brought out the cake. i dont even know i was one of the person being celebrated even though the cake was put in front of me and that guy coz so happen i was sitting next to him also. then at the end i realized actually even the seats they have already planned it out so that when i reach i would sit next to the bday boy. when we were in the lib esther was asking and surveying what kinda bag i like and i totally didnt realise it. so basically im the last person to know the cake was for me also. i kena conned 99. the best part was after the cake. esther and juntat went to pick a bag for me yday. esther was observant enough to notice my bag was so chui and the skin was peeling off every now and then. sometime when i take things out from my bag, the skin will fly out piece by piece. haha. and thanks to kevin who went all the way to get the cake from jp.

2010-10-15T10:59:00.008+08:00

uncle kong is my favourite uncle now. i was surprise that he actually knows my bday. so he brought me out for dinner and a movie yesterday. and me being me dont even know when is his bday. i shall peek at his wallet next time and surprise him with a cake.

i'm so grateful that i have him here.

there.. my life isnt that bad. there are ppl who rmbs my bday and i get alot of helps from many ppl. must start to appreciate and be grateful.

the small little things

2010-10-15T10:59:00.003+08:00

i shall start listing down every single good things for everyday in my life

1) waking in the morning loving my bed. the feel of my bed and my smelly pillow just make me couldnt get up from my bed even though im so awake. hahaha.

2) using my soft new toothbrush.

3) eating the nice butter cookies. imma cookie monster now.

yeahh!! feeling so contented now. i shall go down buy my lunch and continue with my day.

target for today.

1) finish semiconductor

not as bad as i thought

2010-10-13T11:33:00.002+08:00

learning to look at things from different perspective...

2010-10-06T01:41:00.004+08:00

its has almost been a month since i blogged.

my days are just plain boring and i've turn over a new leaf.. a dead and dry leaf .. for the past weeks all i did was study meeting study meeting ntg else ok mayb catch one or two movie but seriously its like my social life is dead.

but one good thing is that i got my bursary... so i will be cutting off my working hours so that i can conc on my studies and meetings...studies and meetings again....

damn regretted that i joined lion dragon dance.. -_-'' it took up 2 nights of my every week and its freaking tiring... and that tb director its just fussy and picky with my design on the banner. i changed few times and she still reject my design. she ask for complicated designs and she expect us to draw the banner. wth. fuck her in the pussyhole and shithole and whateva holes she has

do you believe in karma? last year i was having way too much fun and now im paying the price of not getting any of it...

i miss my frens in ipoh and the ppl in aust.....

i miss all the outings and fun and craps that we do...

i miss the sense of belonging...

i wish i can forget what time is and just have fun like mad drink till i collapse and not wake up the next morning..

this is driving me nuts...

is it that as you grow older ur life becomes more stable.. too stable and all responsibility just make u a more dull person and ur life an ultimate boredom? mayb its just me.. because everytime i feel like having fun my right mind will tell me no ur results is simply a piece of bull shit shittier than ever and if u wan ur bursary or whateve next time u should study and not hav fun at all.

another thing i realised y i cant really click with ppl here is most of them they converse and joke in chinese. i cant get their jokes most of the time and this is not fun... ya we hang out we go lec together and stuff but just somehow we wont be that close... its just not the same.. im missing someone's presence... but again there's no use to think and dwell on the past.. everything is just over...

ppl here are all about clubs and meetings.. when i mix with ppl like zy to hav a bit of fun im just killing myself.. its just so tiring to do what is right and against what u wan....

im just not ready for commitment in any sense.....

2010-09-17T23:17:00.002+08:00

dying flame....

2010-08-25T10:22:00.000+08:00

time will prove everything...

i shall not be bother by it!!!!!!

2010-08-24T18:01:00.007+08:00

some ppl just know how to hurt ur feelings..

cant some ppl just be more understanding and less judgmental

we thought thats what it is but reality shows otherwise.

right here right now i just hope my bed would turn into a bed monster and swallow me up...

no more swearing...

2010-08-02T14:00:00.014+08:00

first thing in the morning i got ppl knocking on my door like a bulldozer trying to smash my room. i ignored the noise and keep on sleeping then i heard key sound and someone unlocked the door. standing outside was the witch bitch from the hall office. got up from my bed with my pajamas and patches of pimple cream on my face i greeted her with my lightning shocked face. that stupid witch bitch recognised me and she knows im not the rightful tenant in the room. she asked for my matrix card and i couldnt give her. she knows and she said she is gonna report to the fucking hall office and if that happen my friend and i will get warning letter and might not get a room next semester. come on bitch im not the only illegal squater around just close your fucking eye la. besides my fren is not staying so i only occupied one side of the room. there;s plenty of empty rooms in the hall. i bet there;s less than 10 rooms occupied in my block. with all my might i talked her out to forget what she saw with the condition i move out right away. im already late for work and that fucking lan chibai wont even let me brush my teeth or take a shower so that i can go to work after that. she just wanna mother fucker chase me off that second. i know this bitch. she just follow the rules blindly. the last time i was late about 5-10 min to put my boxes for storing in the hall she wouldnt open the damn door even though im got my boxes right outside the store room. she told me that she cannot sleep peacefully at night coz she lied to hall office to let me off and asking her to close one eye is ilke asking her to commit the deadliest crime ever. i give her one BIG SWEAT ------------__________________--------------""""""""""""" but luckily after one hour of talking and trying to convince her to let me off she gave in and i moved my stuff. i just wipe off the cream on my face and i get out that was when i realised there;s no bus service coz the bus changed route due to YOG AGAIN. SCREW YOG!! ive got 3 luggages and few pairs of shoes and a laptop. the nearest bus stop is 15 mins or more walk away. how the hell am i gonna carry all this stuff and take bus. . seriously this is the worst experience ever. i better not find any warning letter or anything happen to my fren or i will fucking screw her whole family upside down. i dun see what so big deal of what i did. im not disturbing other tenants or causing trouble and im not even disrupting the next tenant from moving in coz i cleaned the other side of the room yesterday night but that idiotic china whore just have to exaggerate her complaint that there's more than one person staying in the room coz she saw my bf leg while he was hiding behind the wardrobe that afternoon when she came over to tell me she is the new tenant so that she can move in her senior room in the other block.

I can list down all the fucking trouble yog has caused me.

1. i cant make it to aust in mid dec so i got to go for later flight..

2. i got no hall to stay next semester

3. there;s no bus service in the hall thus i got trouble going everywhere. to other canteens, to work in the office in school, even to get out of ntu.

4. my work schedule got changed to later time thats how the bitch caught me in the room at 9am or usually i would have been out by 9. in the end caused me the biggest trouble ever.

it has been so long since im so fumed up like this. i can just curse whole day all this chaotic incident plus my pms i just cant hold back.

2010-07-26T23:21:00.002+08:00

would you shave your head for charity?

there was a mass shaving session in vivo yday. it was a campaign for cancer survivors.

i had a sudden urge to go on stage to cut botak yday but then i was walking with nini and pooipooi so i thought forget it and mayb i will regret later on. haha. i can picture myself botak and if i just draw an arrow on my forehead i will be the next avatar.

bald shall be the new style. u can even save on shampoo.

im getting really lazy these days and also adopting a healthy life style in the progress. sleeping at 11 and waking up at 8 almost everyday.

2010-07-18T22:42:00.003+08:00

Real live drama is always a good way to start the morning especially you are half awake riding on the mrt. So this morning i started leaving my room at about 7 and most of the time I wasnt aware of my surrounding basically im like sleep walking. Even after i entered the train i was fishing. Then I witnessed the most awaking drama. There was this lady in wheelchair wanted to board the train and she asked if the lady inside could give way coz she was blocking the way. So this chibai lady moved unwillingly and stared at the poor lady in wheelchair after she entered. Then things got so heated up that all the diu nia sing and diu nia ma came out. the chibai lady started with the diu ing first and the funny things was she denied and keep on saying the lady in wheelchair started using all the vulgar words first. so for few rounds it went like this.

Chibai Lady No.1: diu nia sing!!!

Pitiful Lady in wheelchair: diu nia ma!!!!

Chibai Lady No.1: diu mat ye. ni yao lan meh? ni lan hou lan dai ah?!!

Pitiful Lady in wheelchair: ngo mou lan ni yao lan. !!

Chibai Lady No.1: chan fai dai sai ah?!!

Pitiful Lady in wheelchair: ni lei si ha chor ah!!

Chibai Lady No.1: diu nia ma!!!

Pitiful Lady in wheelchair: ni mou lan diu mat?!!

......................

with very limited vocab they diu each other providing free porno for ppl in the train.

all i can hear were diu and lan. they should probably attend account class taught by ah jie so that they can improve their vocab at least the diu ing will be more versatile and we who are watching are more entertained.

ok i shouldnt be so bad.. but i really pity the lady in wheelchair coz in the end when i left she was crying and she mentioned she was in wheelchair for 11 years.

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2010-07-14T11:42:00.002+08:00

gonna be so busy from now on.

its weird how sometimes we do things. this person from rws called me and asked if i can work and i told him i can work on this fri. he called me last week but only today that he asked for my particulars whether am i pr or singaporean then he told me he got to confirm with hr if they can hire me. -_-'''

though this job is not what i intended as i actually wanted to try out being a mascot in universal studio but who cares as long as i get free entry there. haha. if lucky maybe i can get some lubang then try to be a mascot for a day. i still haven give up on the madagascar penguin yet.

working on a job too long makes u lose ur passion and naturally affects ur performance. you are so used to the system that unconsciously you will grab any slacking chances you get. thats what im going through now. sigh... feeling guilty.

seaweeds...

2010-07-01T12:00:00.002+08:00

i just saw something that reminds me of one incident in Lim Kok Wing during secondary school.
hahaha. i think some ppl can already guess what's the incident. yes.. its 'fat choy' black seaweed...
and its manufactured in china. manufacturing date probably is the day she was born and i think someone need to tell her the expiry date. product description: curly disorganised black lumpy. (thats the best i could describe) ok enough the more i try to describe the more im losing my apetite.. i didnt manage to grab any food this morning because i was late. usually i would grab a biscuit or fruits from canteen.

bad news for eunice. i;ve checked the weather forecast and its rainy with thunder somemore for the next few days. so be prepared for thunder storm.

2010-06-28T10:11:00.006+08:00

finally the so call event job is finished!! past few days was damn tiring until i cant feel my toes.
its so not fair the promoter opposite me her pay is higher than me and all she do is just stand when i have to prepare this prepare that.

how many ways are there to say 'hot' in chinese?
're' , 'tang', 'sao' ?

I was telling one aunty 'xiao xin tang'=be careful its hot
she replied with a blur face: ha? careful of the soup?
then another aunty said: 'ta shou sao'=she says its hot

that made me looked stupid -_-''

another word that if didnt get the tone correct i can end up getting complaint from these free to shit 30 times a day housewives. The word is 'fen' which can be 'fen'=noodles or 'fen'=shit.
If for one second my tongue had an epilepsy and twisted the word a little i will end up saying "Do you wanna try our SHIT" instead of noodle.

why i say these aunty is free to shit 30 times a day.. because i saw the same aunties for the past 3 days and they probabaly come everyday and its amazing how everyday they can go back with their trolley overflowed.

Back to my weekdays only job..

AUSTRALIA IS MY MOTIVATION!!!!!

2010-06-11T12:28:00.002+08:00

tentatively my exam timetable is until 18th dec. i will have paper everyday from 13th. crazy sia...
if everything is smooth. mayb i will go aust right after that.
that also depends if ppl in aust are still in aust.

2010-06-09T14:31:00.004+08:00

In need of smtg refreshing!!
In search of smtg new!!

Hell with all the mlm. -_-"

2010-06-02T12:47:00.004+08:00

there was one indian grad student came by the office today.. all he was asking for is to logon into his acc to check whether did he pass for his master. his cgpa was at the edge last sem and this sem's gpa is his only chance to pass but he couldnt logon due to outstanding fees. he said he needs to get the result to apply for a job. Looking desperate he keep on saying all he need is to see his result and i could see that he almost wanna break down and as if he was going to go down on his knees. as much as i wanna help i cant and i felt so terrible everytime he repeat that. all i can say is we cant help unless you settle ur fees. in the end after about 20min he gave up and walked away disappointed.
i think this is one of the worst thing that can happen to anyone. you dunno if you can graduate, u got no money to pay for the fees, u cant apply for a job until u get the money and get ur certificate and if u dont pass u got take the exam again and pay more.

2010-05-27T11:08:00.006+08:00

one thing this place taught me is never have expectation not even low expectation just dun.

2010-05-18T22:56:00.011+08:00

i cant believe i finished 2 books within a week. first book is Plain Truth by Jodi Picoult and the next is One More Day by Mitch Albom. I read it once before but this time it felt like as if some parts were specially written for me. there were some situations so similar to mine that i could feel the remorse but i could do nothing about it. anyway enough of the book. time flies and its time for me to go back. it was not a very happy short break for me except for the part i got to escape and met up with some frens.

2010-05-16T10:09:00.003+08:00

relax sungguh. tiap tiap hari tidur awal bangun lewat bagaikan hidup seekor babi emas. haha.

list of what to be done in ipoh:

go pasar malam (tick)

celebrate mama's bday (tick)

spend time with family and frens (tick)

shop and buy (undone)

visit grandma (tick)

visit uncle (tick)

i fried my engine yday and thank god i was just outside yy's house when the car died. it was funny how the moment yy sit into my car and the steam came out. but its not yy faults la.. after diagnosed the sick car it seems like the water pipe burst and the fan isnt working. perhaps it just hates me coz everytime i come bac and drive it there's always some mishaps.

mak pin with anything is officially my favourite.

2010-05-07T22:04:00.003+08:00

hall 7 group outing~ standing at the mrt station made me realized how long it has been since i went out to town. jp was the furthest i went for the past months. it was really fun to go out walk around orchard and try new food with frens. unfortunately josephine couldnt join us. we thought of giving her a surprise for the belated bday. but anyway we got her a present. hope to do that again soon.

i cant wait to go bac to msia. however it will only be a short stay. i will be going bac on 12th reach kl at 6pm. will spend a day in kl on 13th then go bac to ipoh on 14th morning. reach ipoh around 11am. at night mayb will go out to eat with family to celebrate my mama's bday. 15th perhaps yum cha abit then 16th i will be heading bac to spore. 17th start workin. there goes my holiday in msia.

2010-04-30T22:11:00.003+08:00

finally i decided to clean my room but i just manage to clear some of my things. this is how it looked like in the process. i think its messier than b4. haha.
i also realized smtg. i can open drug store with all the medicine i have.

2010-04-28T19:34:00.002+08:00

my current room condition. books notes and food everywhere on my table.

taking a break from study, i look at my room and the stuff that i have. i m gonna have a hard time packing when i move out of hall after exam... i;ve got a wardrobe of clothes, everything on the table, above the table inside the drawers, many shoes, text books, 2 sleeping bags, roller shoes, wave board and some other stuff that i need to clear when i move out.

2010-04-26T10:47:00.002+08:00

yesterday we had a small hall gathering for dinner of KFC. it cost around 7 dollar per person and i had 2 pieces of chicken. so one piece cost like rm 7 plus. then i thought of nadia. haha. mayb i could have get it for free from her. eat KFC and you will think of nadia. while we eat we cracked this joke about EEE students and the cats in our hall. it started when my fren mentioned she has a fren in EEE and sometimes he would scream out of stress and some other EEE ppl who are just weird and antisocial so they came out with the conclusion tat all EEE students are weird and they scream in the middle of the night. then while we are eating we heard some cat hissed, purred or i dunno what to call but just 'meow' in those high pitch sound. so one of my hall mate made a comment and he said that cat is from EEE.

this morning i woke up at 7 smtg. i purposely didnt shower or clean myself so tat it will work better for my play later. then after the play i think it was not really necessary because i think my audience already know the message that i was trying to convey and he kinda just fast forwarded to the ending. well... its a short and effective play and it cost me another bomb.

2010-04-23T01:29:00.003+08:00

what is going on?... i cant make anything right.. im doing really bad in exams, the only thing that i look forward suddenly vanished, evaporated into the air and im going to disappoint my frens. i studied really hard for maths and i did all the past years i have for twice just to catch the pattern and the lecturer changed his style this time making the ques harder than it already is. after reading physic's past year's it felt like vigorously rubbing salt on wound... i dunno how am i going to survive for physics. i cant even do a single ques without referring to the answer. this sem break i really need to reconsider my choice of taking engineering. i know ive been saying this many many time but seriously maybe subj from school of humanities and social science could be better choice at least i dun need the correct wiring in my brain nerves to answer the ques. socialogy seems like not a bad idea.

the lights in my life is like the ratio of twinkling stars to the vast dark sky in the night..
~what is life when you are not living it~
succumb in emonitinessss

2010-04-14T15:32:00.002+08:00

suddenly felt like my presence is so insignificant compare to most of the ppl here. i see amazing ppl once in a while and it makes me feel so small. it not a bad thing at least it gives me some drive to be better. cant imagine how my holiday would be. I just got another job. so for the time being i have two confirmed job in my hand for weekdays. what i need to do now is fill up my weekends and i can fly to aust in dec!!!!!! yeahhhhhhhhh.. but then also means that i dont have much time for other ppl. lo siento.
another thing is im so dead this sem and i got a feeling it will be worst next sem.. im gonna take mc for one subj this sem and ill have to overload next sem.. hopefully i wont drop to 3rd class or da bao.. sometimes when you tell ppl that im gonna da bao and they say ya........ me toooooo. then as the conversation goes on she tells you she got 2nd upper. -_-''' from now onwards im just not gonna mention and if they ask i will just say great. just to keep them guessing and maybe to scare them abit. haha.

2010-04-11T15:33:00.002+08:00

oh my fuck!!! this is the most embarrassing moment ever. i need to dig a hole to bury my face or wear a mask 24/7!! especially in my room....

2010-04-07T18:08:00.002+08:00

sometimes is just so depressing when u are struggling to do a maths ques and after 1 hours plus and u still cant get the ans while there;s this guy next to you who has been watching videos bout warcraft dota,starcraft (ppl still play?), red alert.. basically all kinda war games on youtube since 3hours ago. he must be born genius or he has exam on war strategy to spend so freaking much time on all those videos. another thing is he seriously need some workout. i dun mean to be bad and its not like he did anything to me but i think im just very irritable this period. there he goes again.. -_-'' searching for another war game videos.

ps:perhaps species with name homo sapien should stay away from me for this period of time.

2010-04-06T13:41:00.004+08:00

i have this song stuck in my head. i just cant get it of. its like im reading ''.. tensile strength = ~im only gonna break break your heart~.... " and i can just write this out in my exam paper.
mother.. i got con for going to some useless talk wasting 1 hour of my life and also
got shocked to see someone after quite some time to turn out of shape. perhaps it just ntu life style. dont be surprise to see me turn into either a needle or this

i really wanna watch a movie right now.. by the time i finish exam all the good movies will be gone. i was suppose to watch how to train your dragon 3d with a fren today. but now im here in library feeling like a drug addict. mayb its the coffee getting into me.

2010-04-05T23:29:00.002+08:00

physics-acceptable and reasonable for my course
semiconductor-totally related to electrical and electronics engine
maths-needed in all engineering
life science-to be doc?
material science-ok wouldnt say very related to my field

all these will kill me soon...
none of these subj i have confidence in.
17 days more to finals.
need to read from start for every course
getting broke coz working less

ECP

2010-03-05T15:26:00.002+08:00

wednesday was such a fruitful day. we did so many things in one day. breakfast at round 11 plus then moved on to wake boarding for 2 hours. i thought it was easy but i cant even complete half the round. the most i got was mayb about a quarter of the lake. lol. i think the ppl there also got sick of teaching me. it was tiring but exciting. Though i fell so many times and some of them i fell flat on my face. luckily my nose and lips are still in place. actually the lake is damn dirty with algae, seaweed, and some small water creatures. at the side of the lake is really gross and the ladder is full of moss. however, the fun i had is worth all the grossness that i endured. the next time i go again im so going to complete at least a round. after wakeboarding we went for dinner consisting of stingray, satay, chicken wings, lo bak kou, prawn mee all the unhealty food except of the coconut water. next was cycling and rollerblading. the last activity of the day was prawning. this really test my patience but at least i think its better than fishing. after 3 hours of prawning we only got 8 prawns and we went to one of my fren's house to cook the prawns. cooking our own caught prawns seems weird instead of sense of accomplishment and satisfaction. one of the prawns has a whole lot of prawn eggs in between its legs. we ate 7 prawns that night but we might have killed hundreds.

2010-03-02T11:47:00.006+08:00

the temptations is just too strong for me to resist. sometimes i just cant help it even though i know its so wrong. i used to feel terribly regretful but now it just seems pretty neutral to me. its like whats the big deal.. maybe i should have stayed instead then i dun have to deal with all the shit from you. is that everything that i should devote myself to? im just tired of that already.

what is wrong about living the life that everyone is living? it just the process in life. you fall and u get back on your feet. i dun wan to be like you. why do u have to make me tell hundreds of lies? why cant you have faith in me that i will not turn out to be like her?!! must you catch every single word i said and tiny little action that i did and draw conclusion that im her?

please stop pressuring me...

2010-02-24T18:43:00.004+08:00

recess week... will try to catch up wateva i've missed.
is this the life i wan?

2010-01-29T10:07:00.002+08:00

insensitivity.. ignorance..absolute ntg to offer.

'tong sui'

2010-01-27T00:44:00.005+08:00

walking bac after a tiring day of classes and work and you know that someone has cooked smtg for you and waiting for you to come bac to eat is such a bliss. it does not have to be shark fin or abalone even tong sui is good enough. even when you are working you will feel so motivated coz there smtg that you are looking forward to.

slowly im begining to like hall 7 .... because of the ppl that live in it.

running low on adrenaline now.. good night..

LOST IN TIME

2010-01-18T19:44:00.004+08:00

arranging time schedule is such a trouble. u change here and there and in the end u dun even know when is ur class. 3 lost cows-2 went for tutorial when there;s none-1 went for lec that's not even her subj.
guess will have to stick with german...

very hungry now..

sometimes when you think you are having a bad time actually somewhere someone isnt having any better time than you as well..

waking up in ntu

2010-01-11T01:27:00.003+08:00

took a plane bac on sat and wat do i know my payment was not received coz my card was rejected and tiger airways didnt send me any notification. went to the counter couldnt find my name in the list. I got to buy the ticket on the spot which the price rose up to rm150. ok fine... i waited so long for them to check my name by the time i bought my ticket i got to the gate just in time. i got a final call on the loud speaker and slower by a little i would hav missed my flight. i boarded the plane met a very nice man and he helped me to put up my luggages. he is an amazing man not just that he is a executive director but he could fall asleep in split seconds. one second he was talking to me before the plane took off and the next he was snoring. then he would wake up all of a sudden shake his leg a bit and he fell bac to sleep. after that he woke up again talked to me for a while again he fell bac to sleep. amazing right??.. haha.

just when i thought the day would be better everything went shitty at the end of the day because of one mistake. my phone was out of battery but i know this is not an excuse.... i guess its just my character... i promise i will try to change.

resolution resolution!!!!

2010-01-05T11:47:00.003+08:00

cant believe 2009 has already ended and im turning 20.. getting old.. i would say i enjoyed very much for my short one month break. goin everywhere is so fun. come bac one day then go another place the next day. this is life man.. its like there;s no full stop and ur brain and body never stop and u look forward to everyday. came bac on 14th dec in kl shop shop then bac to ipoh find frens yum cha abit here and there. 24th went kl Corus to celebrate christmas and dnmcb i sprained my ankle. 26th came bac ipoh. 27th went langkawi. langkawi trip was a blast!!! lets plan another trip again. bac to ipoh on 30th, went kl then genting on 31st. bac in ipoh after that. anyway fun is over and i hav to go bac to reality..today is already 5th.. then tomorrow is 6th then 7th... i dun wanna go bac...

okay... resolution.. save enough money to go aust!!! lolzz. i think its better that i dun set any resolution and better just run with the flow.

this year might be a bad year for me. seems like lots of bad stuff happened. sprained my ankle, bang my mom;s car, lost money, get really bad results.

2009-12-05T17:45:00.002+08:00

when you are having exam you pray hard and cant wait for it to finish but then exam is over you can t seems to find things to do. anyway.. the other day i went out for pool with some friends after that we went for dinner at some place near clarke then geylang. For some reasons the girls in the car are more excited than the guys. We went to see the aquarium and we can see some half naked fishes inside. all these aquariums are at the even number streets and the odd numbers are the foods. some of them are really hot but mostly are not. my friend say there;s one area where all the older ones are but luckily we didnt see any or it would most probably spoil our appetite. for those from chinas you can pick one up for bout 40 bucks then the cheaper ones can go down to 10 bucks!! i kinda pity them... I work for one hour for 9 bucks and all i have to do is just talk on the phone. Then every lot there;s an old man sitting outside and they operate the place. next we went to esplanade for a drink. thats the end of day 1 post-exam.

2009-12-01T22:10:00.002+08:00

finally last paper chem tomorrow. couldnt be happier that this sem is ending!!!!!!!!!

2009-11-23T17:51:00.003+08:00

god.. god..pls give me bac my spirit. i totally lost my momentum after the 3rd paper and i still got computing on the way.. finding a place to study in uni is such a hard thing in ntu. wake up early in the morning thought mayb can get a decent place in library and what u see is a line of zombies waiting for the library door to open.. went to business library finally found a place to study but what do u know u keep on hearing 'bang bang bang' and 'nggreeeeee'. workers doing renovation in library they cover the place with some cloths but u know those arent 'sound proof'.. -_-'' even the benches along the walkway is full sometimes.. another choice would be interim reading room. not tat bad in the morning but after a while it turned into kopitiam. i think bout 3 weeks back i saw an ah tiong camping in N2 reading room. when i say camping is really camping. he brought all his food, books, and even matress anything tat is in his room basically he just shifted his whole room to the reading room. when i saw him he was sleeping openly on the matress just like that. i shall take these ah tiong as motivation!!! i must take out my thinking cap again and mayb consider camping also for the rest of the days till exam come. lolz..

2009-11-12T21:43:00.002+08:00

i did the most pantang thing in my presentation today by facing my buttock to the audience. i wanted to look at the script behind and i turned.. shouldnt have done that... but thanks to my brochure assignment i think i will survive. haha and yet the brochure wasnt done by any of my groupmates. all the credits goes to boon choon. danke danke!!! now must choing for my maths and econs... exam in a week time. countdown..

2009-11-09T03:18:00.002+08:00

rushing to finsh lab report!!! freaking presentation coming soon and i hav not prepare anything. exam less than 2 weeks away- definately couldnt finish reading. i need a miracle to happen!! can t wait for holiday to come. I will study real hard next sem!!! no more play no more going out!! i will just focus on study and work!!. I've been telling myself but nvr work...

spending my 1st night in frens house in spore. 'slumber party'? not really... the next day im going in lec walking like a zombie...

2009-10-25T20:07:00.006+08:00

seems a bit late to blog bout my bday but nvm.. haha. im really grateful that i had a splendid bday and totally opposite of what i expected to be. all of u made my day and pulled me out of the emo me.. anyway enough slacking and bac to reality. i must mug mug mug and mug so that i will not fail my maths and computing also so that i dun hav to retake the modules next sem. i need a miracle to happen.

T out~ Nescafe is ur best friend during exam.. U can count on it!!

BUY NOW WHILE STOCK LAST!!!

warning: might have side effects like constipation, high high abit, and snoring during the night.

2009-10-04T21:16:00.004+08:00

met up with nini today..i got a shock when i heard she spent bout 1500sgd for the past one week.. siao.. that can last me for few months.
we were talking bout next year nadia chingmun will be graduating then soon ciara and eu.. then everyone. i wanna graduate now... i completed my FYP so supposingly i can graduate...

stupid laptop adaptor..... life is hard without laptop!! feel like cavewoman here.. pay cheque pls come faster.. one week break never seems to be enough. tomorrow is school again and tues is CA. I can dig a hole bury myself and rot in hell edi...
i must go out less, spend less, study fcuking hard!! sigh.. im losing the will to study, the spirit to excell. feel like coming out to work already.. but i doubt i can survive out there..

Uni drama

2009-09-30T01:48:00.005+08:00

Too many things happened too fast in the past few days . It turned out to be really dramatic and i was not prepared it. neither did i handled the situation properly. Ppl usually face one prob at a time but for my case troubles just come like water pipe. Anyway finally everything ended and i feel really bad of how it turned out to be except for one thing..I just hope that time will do the magic.
end of uni drama.
pulau ubin here i come!! i have to reward myself after all everyone got to enjoy their recess week in msia while im working so i must at least get one day of play.

2009-09-28T20:16:00.001+08:00

finally after all the shit for the past 2 months something good happened.

2009-09-23T20:20:00.003+08:00

FEES ANOUNCEMENT!!!
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i got to get 3k sgd by 12 oct...

2009-09-23T11:05:00.003+08:00

yday was a roller coaster ride for me.. almost got heart attack!!

resolution for recess week- study study and study!!! and work work and work till i drop dead..
hostel fees is here costing bout 400 plus and my account left like 200 bucks. i saw the donation box on the counter at mcD mayb tonight i shall go rob tat box.

~rushing to class now

2009-09-09T19:38:00.000+08:00

everyone is going bac on recess week but i will be here catching up wateva i;ve missed. sigh.. oh i tried "MOS Burger" recommended by nadia. It was really nice though the price is not so. next one im gonna try will be "Pepper Lunch". The food in spore couldnt really satisfy me.. mayb i will use the recess week to hunt for food. "jalan jalan cari makan"

thanks to my very kind fren that borrowed me his car i drove in spore for few times. the traffic rules was a bit weird to me. i can go in front and stop in the middle of the road and wait till the road is clear to turn. i was thinking of mayb renting a car when necessary but very unfortunately usually they only rent their cars to those above 21. so sorry ppl i cant drive u around when u come in this 2 years time.

yday nini called me i've no idea she is also in sg. will meet up with her when i hav the 'time'.
time is smtg i really dun hav now. im learning laws and things by einstien he is so great he should hav created a time machine for the sake of ppl in 20th centuries.

tues was not a good day for me. my 1st tutorial was 'great'. my very very 'kind' tutor suddenly say we r not allowed to use calculator for our quiz and the topic is complex number. -_-'''''''''''' the name is already complex so i totally screwed that paper. another thing tat made my veins burst and my head blow up like a freaking hot air balloon is those freaky chinese finished the ques in like less than 10 min. Me who was sitting helplessly near the door see them leave one by one.

~peace on everyone~

culture shock

2009-08-26T00:40:00.002+08:00

i need to brush up my chinese. most of the msian here speaks chinese and being banana is really not easy. very unfortunately those having same lec and tutorial with me all also sporeans. they way they speak are so different. i find it a bit hard to blend in. they speaks things which i dunno like the spore;s edu system and they like to use abbreviations.

when it comes to tutorial, i got a lousy econs tutor. he;s from china with his accent i can hardly catch his words. the way he teach is like speaking to himself. my physics lectures go like train and i always got left behind. then maths is crazy.. -_-'' rmb vectors where we do onli x and y now we got z. with all the crazy formulaes.

other than all those we got to get involve in coco also. ppl who r running for main comm they hav to promote themselves. its exactly like elections where u hav fish for votes. they even distribute flyers with their face on it asking for votes. then other clubs we got to go for interviews to run for either main comm or subcomm. just for this week i also dunno how many interviews i went edi. so hectic.

im still unemployed here. sigh.. and im spendin quite alot on food. shall chose those cheap cheap one...

my 'dog nest'

2009-08-20T08:34:00.004+08:00

my bed is the one on the left. as u can see this is my room condition. a hell of a mess. anyone wanna volenteer to be my room manager.

2009-08-14T20:13:00.002+08:00

yday night just when i was thinking i will be all alone in the room for the rest of the night, my GLs and group member gave me a surprise visit after peng guan concert. my seniors even took turns to da bao food for me coz i cant go out. they r really nice ppl. cant wait to get well. tomorrow i hav replacement lec at 8.3 and after that they are going to east coast for cycling and 'skating'. pray for me i will get well tomorrrow so that i can go.

2009-08-13T12:41:00.002+08:00

i went to see doc today... the say i got the flu and im room quaratined now. why..... why me.. if really certified h1n1, this shall be my last post......

after orientation

2009-08-11T00:26:00.003+08:00

finally orientation ended. this is the 1st time i see msian so united. the seniors here are really helpful and caring. i can see that they put in a lot of efforts in this FOC camp just to make sure that we do all our admin stuff correctly, planned lots of activities to help us break the ice. they tried everything like entertain and play games with us get us into groups when they see us not mixing around. then they shouted till their voices gone for cheers, slept at 4 smtg woke up at 6 smtg to prepare everything for us. then when we go out the seniors carry bottles of water for us when we go out for games. they even prepare lozenges, vitamins, pei pa gou for us when some of us fell sick. 1st few days were quite boring coz we were doing all the admin stuff then on the 4 days things started to get fun. we got speed dating but with our eyes blind folded. then the next day they will reveal out secret partner. my SP was ok but the next day he ffk me for pool games on last day. then i got to pair with some skinny dude whose waist is 3 quater of mine. -_-''' there was a game where we hav to sit on our sp shoulder to play and he made me fell into the water coz he cannnot stabalise himself when the opponent pushed us. then got ghost house which we didnt expect. suprisingly i wasnt very scare. hahhaha. bangga. then we did many silly and pai seh stuff during the camp. one day we went out around spore for station games. then we hav to sing our cheers in public. there;s one cheer that goes like this 'this is ur banana, nananaa, *with actions that shows the banana is small, then this is my banana, nannana* actions showing the banana is big, chop of ur banana, nanana, now u hav no banana, hahaha. imagine singing tat towards some ang moh in the ferry while standing on the bridge. so maluuu. honestly i think this is the best camp ever. very good planning and really smtg u can expect from ppl and uni in spore. seniors were sporting and they did a good job in organising the camp. when prob arise they can handle it well. im really proud to be a malaysian which i dun before this. hahahah. the seniors really amazed me with their unity and dedications to the freshies. the last day of camp after the closing ceremony we went mamak for yum cha session till 5 smtg in the morning. 1st time i go to a mamak stall in spore. their roti canai was 1 smtg and i can get it for rm0.5 in msia. oh another thing, i didnt know we cannot drink water in MRT.

many thanks to my GLs, AGLs,SAs,Welfares,photographer.

ntu

2009-08-05T01:42:00.002+08:00

in ntu now.... missing home... many things to settle. time table pack like hell dont know if i will be able to work partime.

orientation is quite fun. too many names and faces to remember.
campus too big and still trying to remember the routes
got the worst hall according to seniors coz its isolated and no canteen.
got to take bus to other halls to eat. the food in the nearest hall sucks.
one good thing bout my hall is close to my school
*someone jumped down from my school building!!!!! scaryy
roomie going bac this thurs. i wish i can go bac too... sighh

2009-07-29T17:44:00.002+08:00

waiting is the most torturous thing for me.. sitting there in front of the computer waiting and waiting like an idiot. pls pls dont tell me its a mistake. ppl there r suppose to be pro so pls dont tell me its technical prob or wateva excuses. ive come this far and there;s no turning bac for me so pls pls pls dont blow this off.......

wait wait wait and wait.............

financial crisis

2009-07-25T22:49:00.005+08:00

shopping day!! i picked up my 'human gps' in the morning from her school and we drove from puchong to mid valley. had our breakfast in canton i and we were the 1st customers for the day. since someone's bf is working there she say that she can ask her bf to pay the bill. so much for foc in the end we split the bill but she did get something. he gave her 50 bucks for shopping. didnt leave with empty hand at least. went to fix my antique watch and it costed me 12 buck to change the battery. after the food and the battery i realised that my whole wallet there was onli bout 10 bucks left excluding the 50 bucks parkson voucher. we were both walking around mid valley with less than 30bucks cash in our pocket. i've never felt so poor in my life before. OMG!!! then i went to the atm machine to cash some money but the min amount is 50 bucks and my account has less than 50 bucks. i felt so insecure and seriously broke. anyway i left mid valley with only 2 scarlet panties.

after mid valley with my effective 'gps' we reached my aunt house in Sg.Long. i helped to fix the comp and left right after. on the way bac i drove until 140km/h on some highway. it was damn thrilling. if it was my proton i think it would shatter into pieces with that speed.

i think i;ve been slacking too much... and i love it. hahha. everyone is back to where they should be. how i wish day will never pass and the earth stop spinning so that i can remain....

USM orientation week

2009-07-03T18:08:00.008+08:00

a total of 6 days of orientation in usm nibong tebal. the 1st day we got our room keys and it looks ok at least better than the one in utem. though it was really dusty and the matress was really fugly. there were hair and some yellowish spots on the mattress. there were only me and another girl in my room. there;s suppose to be 4 person a room. so basically day one was all bout cleaning the room. the bathroom was as expected not in good condition. there's bugs and insects. there;s this kind of insects they called 'charlie' when it crawls on u ur skin will go all red, itchy and feels like burning. day 2 is the registration day until the afternoon. then we had our lunch in the cafeteria. there wasnt much choices there but the price is dirt cheap. i ate for 5 days in usm and i;ve used only bout rm20. the best thing there was the waffle which was the 1st meal i had and the last meal before i leave usm. in the evening we had rehearsal for MSS(majlis sambutan siswa) and hav to wear formal. we got so boring that we were playing john mechanic, finger games and whateva game that we can play. the main hall was so far far away and by the time we reached we were all sweaty. amy and i agree that it was a 'walkable' campus until my shoe finally spoilt on day 4. on our way to the main hall there was a path that they call the winter sonata but it was more like summer sonata there. yes that was me and credit to our photographer amy.

day 3 was the real MSS. there was a teleconference between 3 campus and we could see the conditions in the other 2 campus.

then the rest of the days there;s talks and tour to our school. my course is in e&e school and i was the only chinese girl in my course. there were bout 26 ppl and only 3 girls. the other two were malays. scary.... we also have tour to the library.
it was quite big and it has 4 floors. there were many books from other publisher but none from springer, my aunt's company. hahhaha.

on the 5th day we had senamrobik on the field and that was where i got crawled by 'charlie'. by the time i got bac to my hostel i could see my ears swollen my face a bit swollen as well. it was really itchy and i could feel my whole neck burning. i went up to the facilitator to ask if she got any cream that i can apply. she asked me to go to the hall first coz the dinner with the deputy cansellor is bout to start and she will bring the cream to me later. ok fine so i went to the dinner and waited until at one point saw her again and went to her. her reaction was ' ohh u.' then she turned to another facilitator and asked if she got the cream but dun hav. -_-'' she totally forgot bout me. i think if its an emergency i would hav died.
this is the dinner. not so clear shot. then there was performances from hostel lembaran(mine) and jaya(amy).

2009-06-24T02:23:00.008+08:00

here goes... another boring day passed. i'm really looking forward to tomorrow;s outing or smtg that can make my day less dead. docs, procedures are the last thing on my mind now just dont feel like thinking bout them for the time being. 3 other ppl bailing for spore which made my doubt stronger.... bought a wireless mouse today for rm18. someone told me i got a good deal. the only reason i bought it is bcoz i wanna play 'soldier front' on my laptop.. i'm a really bad sniper. even my bro who played for the 1st time got more kill than me. ok mayb all his cs training is the reason. i'm better with spraying. haha. someone show me some tricks .. but i shall figure it out how it was done and a new word for the day, 'danke' means thank u. i feel like buying an external hard disk, a new phone with gps so that i wont get lost, mayb 1 or 2 more formal shirt, feel like cutting my hair (have been saying for dunno how long but u still see the same me after years), need to buy more contacts from yik foong and the list of things i need to do and feel like doing goes on but i'm just too lazy...
i miss ny from time to time so i shall post some expired pics of mine and tell some old story.
3 drunken ppl and one of them is underage. that night was quite a night. came bac from dinner and we found out the door couldnt be opened and its was locked from inside and we thought there were some robbers hiding inside. we dare not stand infront of the door coz we were afraid they might hav guns and shot us right through the door. we waited for bout half an hour or more then we decided to quietly try to break the lock with a bend key chain ring. it was as if we were in those action movies. finally i openned the door with a twist using my magic hand. haha. and we realise the lock was faulty and noone was inside. how sillly that we panicked for nothing.

this is rockefeller and that indian lady is spoiling my pic with her sad face.

cameron

2009-06-09T22:05:00.003+08:00

just came back from cameron highland. its exactly what i need a relaxing vacation. i went for strawberries picking for the 1st time. i dunno why it seems that most of the strawberries that i plucked the whole thing came off together with the roots. hope they will have enough strawberries growing for the next time coz i think i killed many of those plants. haha. mayb its the way i pluck. the next day we went to 'teh boh' tea plantation. they renovated the place so it was quite nice. enjoyed my tea and the view. i can just sit there for hours if we need not rush back to ipoh.

2009-05-29T00:26:00.002+08:00

i've decided. hopefully this is not a decision that i will regret later. hopefully i can get a job as soon as i grad. hopefully i can cope with things there. hopefully everything will turn out to be ok.
cant help to wonder wat will i become in 4 years time. is this the right route for me? how will the life there be?? will i be able to handle?? questions and doubts are all i have now. maybe i think too much and too far........

all those lies and fake hopes

2009-05-20T21:34:00.004+08:00

*speechless........................................

asean failure

2009-05-11T14:22:00.005+08:00

i think i totally messed up my asean interview. i put my 1 st choice chemistry and biological chem which i dun even know wats has gotten into me that time. i didnt even like or took bio in stpm. so i requested for change. they approved me for e&e eng. ok. then during the interview they brought up these and ask me y so i say i like physics more. then after that things became harder to twist. there was this scholarship essay ques wat is ur biggest achievement. i wrote bout dissecting a frog. i hate living things and i'm afraid of things that crawl or jump but i managed to finish the task. tats was how i pulled off my essay. then prob came when they ask me according to ur essay it seems like u have interest in biology why change the course we offered. there;s contradiction of what i wrote and my choice of course. its like i chosed chem and biology course then i change to e & e coz i like physics. wth was i trying to say there. i'm so screwed....... not convincing at all...

2009-05-08T16:23:00.002+08:00

ok. i'm blogging while pretending i'm busy replying customer's email. haha. hope my aunt wont find out. i just have to take the risk to complain abit here. beh tahan edi. some customers are just so freaking dumb. i stated there the stock availability is 'available' still they will call to ask is the book available. wth!!! cant u read. then there are another kind of dumb customers. they will email us a freaking long list of books to ask us bout the price when they could actually check online. thats wat i do to check. those ppl are just freaking lazy to check themselves. big swt ----_____-------""""""""""

2009-05-01T12:05:00.006+08:00

finally some excitements after some donkey working period..wang lee hom concert!!! have been working non stop since the fair. boss that give me non stop works. very unlucky my place is expose and my boss can check on me all the time. she will give me work whenever i seems free. -_-" ok i dun wanna complain so much bout that. anyhow she is my aunt. not good to talk bad bout her. haha. i got my pay cheque!!!! 2nd cheque on the way. must reward myself 99. i think i need some massage. mayb i should go for spa. haha.

i'm craving for another vacation....

cracking my brain for so many things.

feeling regret for choices i have made

my bank account is frozen. -_-" i cant bank in my cheque. got to unfreeze it. set it on fire. haha

need to go bac ipoh collect my new IC. have been leaving it for a month. might not like the new IC coz they forced me to clip my fringe. must look like ah piao....

need to make alot of international calls. my phone now its like vacuum pam. its sucking in all my money.

start working

2009-04-14T22:17:00.002+08:00

yesterday was my 1st day of work. everything is fine so far. no mistakes everything is smooth. but got some scratches on both my hands caused by the books. i pity my boss(my aunt) it seems like every year during this time when we r so in need of ppl to work there's got to be some trouble with the stocks coordinator. 2 years bac, that lady her uterus fell or falling or smtg i'm not sure but the main point is she cannot work and carry heavy books. then last year that woman she was a pain in the ass according to my aunt. she dont help much all she did was chat and gossip around so in the end my aunt fired her. then this year, this one she got a lump in the breast and she is bout to undergo a surgery to remove it and she is not working at the fair. i think this post is under some curse and my aunt ask me to take over the job if the lady cannot work after the surgery just for the time being. hopefully there wont be anything misfortune happen to me if i am to substitute her place.

2009-04-07T19:17:00.004+08:00

my vaio got scratched..... arghh... its only bout 3 months. i need to buy a cover soon......

finally two applications gaodim. few more to go....

2009-04-03T18:04:00.002+08:00

i hope u all go bankrupt soon... -_-"

2009-03-26T00:45:00.002+08:00

seems like so many ppl having trouble sleeping lately. my cousin, amy including me. arghhhhh all those application stuff are just damn 'fan'. make my head wanna explode. why do all those freaking companies wan so many stuff.. -_-" resume, testimonial, pay slip/income tax which i dun hav and i need to write some freaking letter explaining my financial status.. need to take passport photo then need to write stupid essays like why do u think u deserve the scholarship. -_-" Why? because i need it to freaking stay away from public local uni and get the hell out of malaysia. so many things to do so little time. need to read on the infomation bout the company offerring the scholarship somemore to prepare for the interiew. need to get formal clothes and shoes for interiew another thing to fan.. =_=" i was never good in outfits... feel like showing up in my new ecko shoes and jeans -_-"" everybody in the world is like 'fanning' their own things. i miss the 3months break in ny......... dunno when will i hav the chance again....

2009-03-21T13:14:00.002+08:00

1. What is your name: joanne

2. A four Letter Word: jazz

3. A boy's Name: james

4. A girl's Name: janice

5. An occupation: janitor.

6. A color: jingga hahahah

7. Something you'll wear: anyone can help?

8. Food: jackfruits

9. Something found in the bathroom: jelly fish? cannot think of any la...

10.A name of a place : jamaica

11.A reason for being late: jammed in trafic

12. Something you'd shout: ''jialat lo"

13. A movie title: journey to the center of the earth

14. Something you drink: juice

15. A musical group : jonas brothers

16. An animal: jaguar

17. A street name: jalan kampar. doest it count?

18. A type of car: jeep?

19. The title of a song: just stand up

2009-03-05T10:26:00.002+08:00

when is spring coming??? its already early march and its still cold. just two days ago it snowed again. i just hope winter pass quickly so that they will reopen the ship service and i can go to statue of liberty. its a shame if i came to ny and didnt go there. i just watched street fighter legend of chun li. it was not as good as i expected. kinda disapponted. it was played by kristin kreuk and i was hoping it would be a good one. cheik.... no good. nothing much to blog these days. either work or stuck at home cause of the snow....
2 more weeks and i'm leaving already. i'm sure i will miss my cousins here. there were some times i was hoping i can go bac to msia faster but now that i;m really going to go bac soon makes me feel like i never got enough of it here. feel like wanting to stay longer and explore more of the things here. another reason i dont feel like going bac is when i go bac i will hav to face my result and all the fussy applications that come after this. arghhh.... hate it...

2009-02-25T08:19:00.010+08:00

yesterday i went to a college in manhattan called hunter college. a friend of mine goes there and she took business law. so she suggested maybe we could follow her and join her for the lesson. we agreed and went yesterday morning. actually we just sneaked in we are not suppose to be in the class at all. i think the prof did noticed that we are not from his class but he just doesnt care and besides we were very good students because we paid full attention during the whole lesson. it was quite interesting. it has been so long i've not been in a class. felt kinda weird. lol. he taught something about option offers, firm offers, promisory estopel or something like that cant really remember. haha. i find business law kinda easy or maybe just because the examples that he gave were very straight forward.

then today i went to broadway. there were so many theatres. we were looking for equus but never found it. wonder where is it. haha.

anyone want to watch mama mia on stage?

then we went to the m&m shop. it was huge and the whole place was full of m&ms it has two levels some more. that place is like m&ms paradise. it has been so long i have not eat m&ms. felt like diving into a pool of m&ms.

on the second level there was this very interesting machine. you stand under it and it determines ur mood at the moment and your m&ms colour. mine was dark blue. it says i'm feeling serious and sophisticated. lol!!! . we bought some and it came with this cute m&ms bag.

after we went out of the stall there were two police officers standing there probably on duty they came up to us and ask can we have some m&ms. we were shocked. it was like out of nowhere some police officers come up to you. anyway we gave it to them. not long after that we encounter this guy giving out flyers. he gave us flyers and he saw the m&ms then he ask can he have some again. i never know newyorkers like m&ms so much. hahaha. it was really funny though. after that we hid the m&m's in the bag if not i think it would have been finish before we even reach home.

next as we walked we reached time square.

this is the stage. it was actually just some stairs. then around were shops. there was also planet hollywood and hard rock cafe. there were actually quite many ppl inside compare to the one we have in kl according to my cousin.

got to go back to work tomorrow. sigh. getting tired.....

2009-02-22T12:13:00.004+08:00

2 days trip

2009-02-19T07:27:00.002+08:00

last 2 days i went for a trip to upstate of new york some place call syracuse. the 1st day we went to woodbury outlet. bought smtg for my bro a clothes for myself. they gave us only about 3 hours to shop which is not enough. that place was so big and to finish walking the place it needs whole day. then after that we went to a casino called turning stone. CASINO!!!! ever since i learnt to gamble i always dream of entering a casino. hahahaha. finally i went into one. i went in legally coz it says 18 and above. hahha. i played blackjack. i was winning at 1st. i won 60dollars then i lost back. T.T we spent the night in some inn called holiday inn. ntg much in the inn. just one small swimming pool and a restaurant. then next day we went skiing at song mountain. it was extremely fun!!!!!!! i wish i can go for another time. they only give us 4 hours. again its not enough for me. arghh... 1st i was traning at the beginners route. it was ok.i fell many times at 1st coz i cant stop. haha. luckily didnt hit anyone when i was coming down. after many times of falling i've learnt to control and stop. then i decided to go for the harder route. i took the cable up and o.O omg kinda regret. along the way up i saw the route it was long and freaking steep but there was no turning back. finally i reached the top. then i skied down. i think i fell like million times along the way down. haha. its was crazyly steep. then i even saw kids more pro then me. they went down so fast like race cars. they turn left and right like pro. malu shit. when they passed me i was lying there trying to get up. i thought after i could handle the beginners route i should be able to handle this route but it was harder than i thought. lolz. this was the end of the trip.
will upload the pics later.

2009-02-11T12:51:00.014+08:00

today is off day for me so i went 5th ave with my cousin. this street is like shopping paradise but only for rich ppl. ppl like us will have to sell our ass to buy things from here. its mostly designers brands and they r freaking expensive. oh we went into abercrombie&fitch. at the entrance two models were standing a girl and a guy. poor the guy he was posing topless and standing in front of the door. when ppl open the door he must be shivering. lol. then the girls inside were all dancing and greeting the customers. every single guy and girl was tall pretty and handsome. with the songs and ppl dancing the atmosphere was so good that you wont feel heart ache even you spend hundreds in there. but too bad i;m wayyyy too broke to spend. hahaha. the service there was very good mayb too good. there's 3 floors and every single floors i go or should i say everywhere i go ppl will come up and introduce themselves and ask how can they help. i think if i stay there longer i will know the name of every single person that works there. lolzzz. then there are others shops as well. louis vuitton,escada,dior,chanel,armani exchange, bottega veneta, keneth cole or smtg all kinda designers brands.

tgi fridays? cant afford. so in the end we went sbarro to eat 3 dollar one piece of pizza for lunch. lolz..

pucci? haha. i know gucci didnt know there's pucci.

trump tower is in this street as well. the building is crazyly golden in colour. the walls everywhere is painted gold. the building includes offices, restaurants,bars,shops, and its like a little shopping complex with offices at the higher levels of the building. the employees can shop and eat during the break. how nice............ i want to work in trump tower too....

this is inside the building.

next we went to the apple store. the store its located underground. there;s stairs and elevator that goes down. i want to buy the iphone so badly...... but have to sign contract with some phone company for 2 years to get it for 199 and if without contract it will cost 399 but still u have to be an at&t user. they dont sell it like retail. argh.......

thats it for today.. tomorrow working again. hope tomorrow less deliveries but more customers come in so that i can get more tips. lolzzz.